If I have a problem with someone, I'll:
- Avoid them
- Ignore them
- Spend endless hours analyzing why I'm irritated and formulate ways to deal with it, either by discussing the issue or resolving it internally
- Or- Resolve never, ever to let that person close to me again.
If I'm reeeeallly, reeeallly, invested in the person, I'll try to reconcile and eat dirt to do so..(feeling miserable all the while until the thing is resolved)...but this is problematic since it involves the possibility of rejection, and I'd rather handle a live snake than to face being rejected.
I hate being human. I hate having a heart. And I hate the cold and icy fear that blows through and settles in my chest.