I don't know, I mean....I hate this, but this is the way you want things to be. I don't understand that, and it isn't my choice or preference, but what can I do? Nothing, that's what. I just have to try to deal, try not to hurt, pretend not to care, work at moving on with my life.

It does seem to me that there are a lot of alternatives that would be much less awkward/triggery...but...not my choice.