And...I have to find a way to be happy and contented despite whatever is going on with this situation. I have concluded that a change in the situation, which is what I have screaming for over the past year and a half, might not necessarily console me. I am not certain that there's anything that any person can do to make me feel better. Whatever it is that has to be done, is probably intrinsic and I will have to battle it alone. What a daunting, isolating thought.... In the end, we're all alone, aren't we?