OK well, that was grueling. I haven't had a panic/anxiety/whatever attack like that in months. It was almost physically painful. Ugh. And see, this is where I'm my own worst enemy, because if I'd had any common sense I would have seen what was pointed out to me so concisely by one very level headed and forthright person.

I have to try to stop thinking with my fears/anxieties/negative opinions about myself/etc....feeling that stuff is one thing, but using it to think with...not so effective.