I am the worthless thing that nobody wants to acknowledge being mixed up with.

That's what I think sometimes. I get left behind. Downplayed. Denied. Ignored. Lied about. Left out. Disavowed.

And nobody ever tells me why. I wish that they would. If I knew what it was, I could change it, and then these horribly painful things would never happen again.

It causes me to lose respect for them. They're cowards.