My body rebels, screams out the pain that I will my mind not to feel, retches up the horror that I try so hard to deny, to push out of my conscious mind. I try to live, to move on....my body isn't having it....betrays me.

And I try to tell myself that in time, this will ease, that it'll end...that something somewhere will give, because this is too much for too long. But my body knows that I'm lying.