Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Well, I've been fighting off a cold for the past two weeks, so I suppose it was only a matter of time before it caught up with me. I made the mistake of showing up for work yesterday when I knew I was pretty sick. They made me stay even though I was so sick that I could hardly function. And, it may have been the cold, but my hips still hurt. I could hardly walk yesterday. I think that the White's boots help somewhat, but not entirely. I don't know if it's the hard concrete floor there or what. So today I called in sick. I could hardly crawl out of bed this morning anyway. /pityparty

I am getting seriously disillusioned with work again. I don't think they really care all that much about whether or not we're productive, hard working, problem solving, or any of the other things that have to do with work ethic and making money for your company. No, I think that basically, what matters is that you paste a happy face on and have a good attitude. Other than that, you can show up for work or not, work hard or not, cause serious financial losses to the business...as long as you don't rock the boat or seem unhappy at all, anything else is more or less fine. And with this being the case, it seems simple enough, you'd think I'd be able to pull it off, but no. The inefficiency and certain other things that I see drive me absolutely crazy, and I'm [b]not[/b] good at putting a phony mask on. The whole hopelessness of it all makes me depressed. There has got to be a job for someone who is intelligent, honest with or without supervision, resourceful, more or less says what they think, and who is constantly seeking for ways to improve matters either in terms of efficiency or the actual product. You would think that there would be a better place for me, but honestly, all folks seem to care about is whether you're a nice butt-kisser.

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