This looks like possibly the most useful site I have found yet to deal with the problems I have been having. The difficult thing has been that I am aware in some part of my mind that the thoughts which are tormenting me are not reasonable, realistic, or rational, but it's sort of like having really bad music piped into your bedroom 24/7- at some point it is going to get to you and it's so loud that anything else can hardly be heard. I have got to find a way to unplug the speakers and throw them out the window.