I am feeling fairly happy, but there are nagging yearnings.... Most of all, I want stability, some kind of an anchor in life, someone or something who will reliably, dependably be there for me even when all sorts of shit is hitting the fan. It could be a farm, a partner, a job, a calling, a friend...but I want to belong, to have a place in life that I can't get kicked out of.

I should go work on my pottery....(but I'm afraid to go look...my salmon that hadn't even been bisqued yet had a broken tail the last time I went there...and it was the best I'd made so far)...I should buy art supplies (but I'm feeling cheap)...or should finish painting the shed (tired of sunshine- yes, really!)...yearning for nature, need exercise.