I have to decide whether or not to go back into college this fall. I need to make the credits up and there are a ton of other very, very pressing reasons why I have to go back to school. Also, there are things such as self respect, dignity and pride...as well as having something to keep my mind off stuff. I should re-enroll, even if it's only for a couple of classes.

And then I think about today. I spent more than half nearly all of the day (I don't even want to talk about the night) trying to exist for another hour or two. And that scares me.... I cannot afford to fail a third semester. In so many ways, I cannot afford that.

I have less than a day to decide.