Have started a new-to-me kind of therapy called EMDR which is reputed to be very effective for PTSD, trauma, anxiety, etc. The first session went fairly well and I felt much better afterwards. Today's sessions dredged up all sorts of stuff, chained together, and the therapist concluded that we have to work on some of the grieving issues....and of course, she was right. We forgot to end the session with meditation as we did the first time, and I am feeling a bit fragile and raw.

So...trying to be nice to myself tonight, take it easy. Don't know what to do about my relationship with my partner. Are we partners? I don't know. Thinking about that will hurt....stop. Rest. Relax. Be nice...no stress....