Bleh. I'm exhausted. I got the job at the grocery store and today was my second day at it. The first day went well, lots to learn, and my head was spinning a little, but I absorbed it quickly enough. Today I knew the routine a little better. They've got me working in the deli and bakery. I could complain about the gal I worked with today (slacker!) but you know, I'm just too tired. :-P

My blood sugar keeps diving and leaving me feeling lightheaded and so dizzy that I feel like passing out. The deal is that I don't have enough excess fat left to burn off when I forget to eat, and to be honest, I don't eat much because I'm rarely hungry. When I am hungry, it's for meat or other protein foods, fairly rare around here. Anyway- I had an interview on Monday but got so funky that I was afraid to drive- had two very close calls locally- so moved it to tomorrow. :note to self: Eat! Do not neglect regular insertion of food into mouth!

One of the jobs I do at the deli is breading chicken to be deep fried. I never noticed it before, but the pink unbreaded flaps of skin and flesh look oddly, umm....labia-like. It was kind of a shock the first time I noticed it. No, I *don't* have a dirty mind. YOU bread a few cut pieces of chicken with skin and fat hanging down, take a good look, and then get back to me, if you think so! Besides, I don't think of sex or gentials as dirty.

What is dirty:

• Acting stupid and hung up about sex
• Using sex as a mean of aggression and dominance
• Teaching people that it's shameful or dirty (yeah, they always say it's private, or *special*, not dirty, but the proof's in the pudding, dear.)
• Hurting people in or with an area that was intended to be sensitive and intimate
• Attempting to pretend that sex really doesn't exist
• Expressing hostility towards women through sex (would include most porn, IMO)
• any combination of sex and a control trip
• any combination of sex and humiliation

OK, I'm done for now. See, I just got this book- Erotic Art by Taschen (I think that's the title), and I'm a little dismayed about it. Looking through these paintings, I'm appalled at the amount of violence and hatred that I see in these pages. Many of them are not what I consider erotic, they're dirty (see above). Do men really hate women that much? Is that really the way they view women and sex? Ew... :considers lesbianism for a very brief moment: What I'd like to see now is a book of erotic art by women. It'd be an interesting comparison, because only a few- a very few- of the paintings in this book are by female artists. To be continued....