That ache....that never really goes away.

But: there are all kinds of things that I need to do and work on. It's so easy to think that finding the right person would be some kind of magical solution, make all the rest of life fall into place. The truth is that sooner or later, the shit we don't work on, all the same fears, issues, problems come right back to haunt us....except that then there's a second person who has to deal with it too and possibly get blamed for stuff that was there long before they were. It doesn't magically go away. It has to be hashed out and worked through and resolved.

I wouldn't wish the stuff I've been dealing with lately on anyone. Well, maybe some of the people who caused some of it....but those people are far away and I hope never to see them again.