Tuesday, March 30, 2004
Long day at work. Been working every day since the 20th. Life seems unreasonably difficult and complicated right now. I have no idea how I am going to make it through spring break. I cannot afford the child care. The cost of gas alone is eating me up alive. I often wonder why I am doing this, why I'm even bothering? Failure and defeat lurk around the corner, and so far I've managed to beat them off, but only barely. Hell, I don't even know how I'm going to manage tomorrow. I have *no* money for child care. Let me count- I'm rich today: a grand total of $3.31!! Ha. Maybe I can get several days worth of lunch with that, if I want to splurge.