I don't want to do anything that hurts or negatively affects you. :-( I have to figure out what exactly I am doing and then do everything in my power to change that.
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I don't know if you read this, but what if you did? I write really awful, depressing shit here, and while it's cathartic in a way....in someone else's shoes, reading it? Oh god. I can write that sort of stuff in my sketchbooks. And the thing is that I am not actually this blue 24/7, it's just sort of turned into my venting place. :-/