Went to meeting. Should go home, purge (belongings, not stomach contents) and pack now.

Thinking...a few people have used the word "understated" to describe me. Understatement is something I am fond of, so it felt almost like a compliment. But....is that just a kind way of seeing that people perceive me as being less than I am? Worse, am I less than I think myself to be? Maybe the people who perceive me as trashy are right? Maybe the reason things don't work out for me is that I am not worth it. I don't want to think that's true.