When I finally get better, I don't ever want to feel this way about anyone again. It doesn't work out for me, I don't have the social skills to comprehend what's going on, the finer details of head games elude me and I just cannot afford it. Maybe I'm too sensitive, maybe I don't know how to measure out my feelings, maybe I don't know how to let go, but in any case, the answer is the same: this is a game that I cannot win and that I should never play.

Luckily enough, the odds of my feeling this way again are slim anyway. The parameters of what I find attractive and deeply interesting enough to fall this hard are far narrower than they are for most.

I don't know....I just don't feel like I am ever going to be the same.